p/s: i hate you

dunno where to start....erhmmm...rite!

cut it short!!!....

i teraser mcm ader berlaku 'sisihan piawai' di sini..
well, idup x semudah yang kiter sangker...dan ianya boleh diibaratkan seperti roda..kejap kiter di atas dan sekejap kiter di bawah...
walo aper pon yg terjadi..yang penting....aku masih di sini!

kejadian sisihan piawai neh berlaku...tak pernah mematahkan semangat aku utk berkerja dan berkhidmat utk bangsa bagi melahirkan cendekiawan negara....ceewaahhh!! sgt hiperbola!..*pooorahhhhhh!!!*

yes...i admit it..ever cross my mind to not juz being too straight....and i realize that..
what is really..really needed to be part of the team line is...to have an ARTIFICIAL FACE!! which is i think should be the prior requirement for each company to hire their staff *specifically dedicated to *tutttt* department*.sangat Jargon!

maybe d way i react..and the way i treat *** is somewhat like *** cant accept...
YES! i dunno how to 'kipas' you like they did!
YES! i dunno how to get close to you as they did!
YES! i dunno how to memaniskan muker utk senyum kat you selalu like they alwiz did!
YES! i dunno how to ajak you gi makan2 and pelawa you anything like they did!
YES! i dunno how to get along with you since the first day!
YES! i dunno how to greet you well as they always did!
YES! i dunno how to say hello and goodbye to you as sweet as they did!
YES! i dunno anything about you...
and
YES! i do not belong to your clan!

suddenly kristinia debardge's keep playing in my head...
"I dont care if i never see you again..i'll be alright, take this final piece of advice and get yourself together but either way, baby.. IM GONE!'
"Im so over it..i've been there and back, changed all my numbers and just in case u r wondering..i got that new..im a SINGLE GIRL SWAG..got me with my girl and we're singing it and..Sing!!!..na..na..naaa...naaa..naaa..GOODBYE"

yeah...goodbye sounds good!! but then.. if i just leave..the problem is still cannot be solved..my dear laili!..
crying inside is much hurt than crying outside..i guess!!

To *** (in case...u are reading this),

As long as that u never cross my heart or stab my back...i will live my life happily without your disturbance and yes, your ignorance!!
Since that im also a human being that would like to treat as one...please...im begging you to be a very good ****** and treat me (specifically) just the way you treat them!..i do know how to work things out and i am not the 'self-centered' type and i am not that 'snoopy' one to make some troublesome...
i will make sure that..there'll be less and less trouble over me!...
and last but not least
"DON'T YOU DARE TROUBLE THE TROUBLE, IF YOU DON'T WANT THE TROUBLE TO TROUBLE YOU" -HLovate

Appreciate your time for reading this...


yours sincerely,
Lely